Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Birthday

Today is the birthday of the woman that gave birth to me. I know that sounds really harsh but that is how I feel. I have not spoken to her for about 3 months. When I talked to her then I had to call my sister to have my mother call me. Anytime I want to give her an update I have to call my sister to tell her to tell my mother. It is so messed up. I do not even have a number for her anymore. She does not make an effort to contact us either. My kids ask why I just have to say I do not know. Twice a year I think about her. Mother's day and her birthday. For those of you that are on my facebook pages know I post often. She barely ever likes pictures or even comments. At first I thought she just did not have internet until one day she was commenting on my cousin's post. It made me wonder why she can not do so on mine or email or even just call me. Last week I had a dream that my father was still alive. It was such a great dream. He was a major part in my children's lifes. It made me sad.

But I have to remember that I have 2 other moms and another dad that is there for when I need to talk or even just say hi. I have 20ish brothers and sisters that care about me. I have so many nieces and nephews that I have lost count (not really I can name all of you your spouses and your children and sometimes in order) that care for me as well.

Well I am rambling. So to end this my point that I was thinking is blood does not make a family. LOVE makes a family and I have a very large family that is filled with love!!