I am at a loss for words

Well I know that people read my little blog here but did not really realize how many ppl do care. I feel honored. I have to remember not to take everything to heart all the time and to let myself cool off before blowing up so much. I have found away to o this step aerobics and loud music!! at first I stomp the step cause I am angry then after a while I start to cool off and I keep going until my legs are screaming at me. and it is fun I have found I can do this and watch tv or movies. I use to do something like this when I was a teenager I would go for very long walks with my disc man or Walkman. Funny on how it is now a MP3 player.

So some good things are going on we may be staying for a bit longer. McKay has been offered a good steady year round job we are looking into it all please keep your fingers crossed for us. Plus this company is also in Vegas so if we still choose to leave he can transfer and possible have help with the move.

Everything is up in the air right now. McKay has worked a total of 6 hours this week. So right now we are taking everything day to day. I feel like I am in rehab again telling my self to take things one day at a time LOL.

So the kids start school on Monday. We are hoping to go get my rivers license that day Yes I am SCARED. I drive a Suburban the test car is this tiny Honda.

SO with the kids back in school I may be working again. I know that some jobs i can take avery so that is a help.

I dont know what I have done

Well apparently this whole blog thing has gotten a few people upset. But I thought the reason for blogging was not just to update on the positive things going on in life and the new achievements of my children. I do not like the feeling of letting people down in my life. I do not wish to have to sensor what I have to say at all. Yes it is bothersome that my life is not all rainbows and sunshine honestly it really never has been as happy and cheerful as people may think it is. I know that no ones is.

So this is going to be the end of my blog for now. I do not know when I will start it back up. But I feel that I have to simplify everything and I do not need the added stress and discomfort of comments, emails and messages. I can not please everyone and I do not wish too.

I started this blog to allow the people in my life that are not close to know what is going on. Sorry that it has not all been positive. I guess if someone what to know how we are they can email call or write a letter.

I will be deleting this blog in a few days.

Leaving Utah

Well I think we have made up our minds the whole work thing is just not going well her. McKay has several job opportunities in Las Vegas so we think we are going to go back. Right now it is really hard being in Utah. I hate to say for nearly a year now I have been fighting depression because of the lack of friends and the whole money thing. It is really putting a strain on our family. I need to make the best choice for us. Part of me hates to leave because I will miss the family very much. Mostly my mother in law Ellen. Over the past 2 years she has become very very dear to my heart. I know that we will be coming back to Utah to visit. But it will not be the same. And will not be that often. I hate to leave this house I have put allot of my heart into it and I know that it is just a house and in time the new house will feel the same. The other hard part is that the boys will have to share rooms But we will all get over it and deal with everything in time

Feeling Better

Well I did not want to post about this till I was sure he was better. And he is. Of course he is driving me totally insane. He is eating everything he can get his hands on. Running around the house is a new sport for him. Well as things normally go when our children are ill as soon as they are better it is mom and dad's turn. So now it is me Of course I am not as bad as he was but now I know how he felt. Headaches all day that will not go away and my body does not want to move. Oh joy.

Well we have a new plan. McKay is taking the first day of school off work. After we take the kids to school we are heading over to Drive Right for my driving test then off to the DMV to get my license. I am nervous I think I will do just fine but It has been a while since I have driven a compact car. It is so different in the Suburban. So I am going to see is someone will let me drive their car for a bit the weekend before hand so so I can remember.

Sorry I lied

Okay Avery Is not doing better He does not have a fever so that is good but he is super crabby and the littlest thing will just set him off. He hates that I am making him wear a pull up. I thought that he was getting better but it just is not happening. So of course I am not sleeping. I have gotten mixed advise on what to to with him But so far I found a quiet afew articles online that basically say the same thing on how to treat this
1 keep him hydrated which with Avery is not a problem he LOVES water.
2 The best foods for your him are easily digestible foods, such as rice cereal, pasta, breads, cooked beans, mashed potatoes, cooked carrots, applesauce, and bananas.Pretzels or salty crackers can help your child replace the salt lost from diarrhea. And of course nothing super sugary.
3 Avoid giving your child apple juice, chicken broth, soda pop, sports drinks (such as Gatorade, All Sport, or Powerade), ginger ale, or tea. These drinks do not contain the right mixture of minerals and sugar to replace lost fluids and may make the diarrhea worse.

So I think I will make him some soft pretzels he will like that I hope mashed potatos he loves so I will just play it by ear with him I know that there is nothing that the doc can do at this point for him he is not lethargic there is no blood and he is hydrated.

I just have to deal with it I am scrubbing the 2 bathrooms he uses 2 twice a day and wiping things down after he goes to the bathroom. I have asked the kids to use the basement bathroom as much as possible just to make sure they do not get this. But they have not yet.


Well I am trying to get the kids back on a school schedule it is not going so well. they need to be up feed dressed and have rooms picked up before 8 am since this is the time they would have to leave for school. But since I am not up until about 8 lately it is not happening. But i know that they are all up. School starts in 18ish days!!

feeling Better

Well Last night McKay picked up Pizza and crazy bread I really did not want Avery to eat the pizza but oh well. But I guess it did well he slept all night last night and did not throw up at all last night. He is still sleeping right now and it is 9 am so I guess he is doing better. I am so happy that he slept. I kept waking up thinking I heard him but I guess I did not. Well we will see how today goes.

my poor baby

Well Avery is sick and not even a little bit as I thought. He has had a cold since sat was not very worried. Well now he has had Di area since Sunday and now throwing up he is not eating anything just drinking allot of water I am going to watch him and see how it goes but I have to get him to eat I told him that if he eats a gram cracker i would give him some M&Ms but that is not even working. I can not force him to eat something since it will not even happen I had to buy him pull ups yesterday. He is so crabby he want to go watch movies in the living room and I told him no that we are staying in my room since the bathroom is closest. So he is mad at me now He is laying on the floor onmy robe just holding the 1/4th piece of his gram cracker. this really sucks

why even bother

I mean seriously why bother with anythng bloging trying to make friends It just seems I try to be nice to others and realy it just bites me in the rear. this is all just getting really old really fast. I am sick of trying to be someone I just am not. Might as well lock myself in my house and give up. May be it is cause everyone but mckay is sick in the house or that everything i try to do fails. But i just do not want to care anymore

I sure am Lagging

Well I know it has been a bit since I have updated here. But Oh well. Things are okay here. Just been playing with the kids working and such. Last wed Joshua turned 11 years old I can not believe he is 11!!! He is getting so old LOL. I also can not believe how tall he is he is like a weed just shooting up every time I turn around. It is really scary. I really think he will be Taller the McKay and I. My Father was tall and maybe that is where he gets it. Well some things about my Boo. Well I still call him Boo and have sice he was an infant. Not really sure why. But I like it. He Loves Star wars Pokemon and Harry Potter. Last week he got his lower braces off and his teeth look fantastic. I can not wait until the top ones come off. They did put in a permanent retainer. He says it feels funny but getting use to it. He lost a tooth the other day. It just popped out. Funny thing is Nathan lost is other front tooth the same night (with the aid from mommy) So the tooth fairy did not have to make 2 trips to the house.

Well I have been working this week. Actually I am heading out here soon. I really hope it is not too hot today. But it will be. Nice thing is I am just working on Kate's yard and she lives next door from us so I am still close to the house if the kids need me. We have worked out that If McKay does not go to work I will go to work. And a few nights a week after McKay get home I go to work for a few hours. Which is nice since it i cooler then.

Well that is all that is going on around here kids are going back to school at the en of the month. It will be nice to have the quiet house back but I know we will miss them